Oy! I'm sorry to hear of your ill-timed walk on the wild side, and even sorrier to hear that you're missing out on the good stuff at this time of year.
As for not feeling like you're good at your jobs right now, I can only speak to the academic side of things (although I would be happy to embark on a miserable failure of a career as a preacher for contrast), and I feel I must remind you that it is simply impossible to feel good about being a teacher at this time of year. We are all pond scum in May---we are stressed out, overburdened, we are inundated with students who want to feed you tales of last-minute woe, shaking your confidence that you've taught anyone anything. It's not you. It's the life of an adjunct.
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As for not feeling like you're good at your jobs right now, I can only speak to the academic side of things (although I would be happy to embark on a miserable failure of a career as a preacher for contrast), and I feel I must remind you that it is simply impossible to feel good about being a teacher at this time of year. We are all pond scum in May---we are stressed out, overburdened, we are inundated with students who want to feed you tales of last-minute woe, shaking your confidence that you've taught anyone anything. It's not you. It's the life of an adjunct.
Feel better, dearie.